Tuesday, 4 October 2011

A Crochet Colon

Yes you heard me.  A crochet colon.
Wanna see?

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This work of art is not mine.  It is the handy work of talented crochet and knit designer Alicia Kachmar.
You may have heard of Alicia - she runs the Etsy shop Eternal Sunshine, she designs and makes some truly brilliant crochet critters, and she has written some books on crafting, the latest being the rather beautiful looking Microcrafts: Tiny Treasures to Make and Share.

I stumbled across Alicia's blog quite some time ago during one of my drooly trawls of crochet on the internet, I was happily gazing away at pictures of her crochet when there staring up at me was the unmistakable shape of an infected colon.  Instantly recognisable to me as I have seen so many pictures of my own innards beamed back at me on wobbly hospital screens, and so many diagrams and pictures presented to me in order to explain the pain and the debilitation of my illness.

You see, Alicia has ulcerative colitis.  In fact she is about to undergo the third and final surgery required to cure her of this illness.  Her writing on her experiences of this illness is incredibly detailed and poignant. I've re-read a lot of her blog the last week or so.

I have pushed away surgery since I was 19 years old, which means I have either been ill, on steroids, in hospital or on other strong drugs for 15 years.  Twice I have been in hospital in earshot of the sound of a surgeon's knife being sharpened, and twice I have recovered enough at the final hour to convince them to give me one last chance to beat this on my own, with all my organs intact.

The last couple of weeks I have begun to get sick...again.  I am back on steroids, a lot of them...again.  But this time around I just can't fight it anymore.  After 15 years I am literally getting to the point where I don't want this damn colon anymore, they can take it away, I won't miss it.  I have got myself a degree, succeeeded in all my jobs, got married, had two healthy children - all in the shadow of ulcerative colitis, all whilst in and out of hosptial wards, day units, blood testing units, assessment units, consultant appointments, GP visits....there has to be a life beyond this.

Tomorrow I am being admitted into hospital so I will be away from my blog for a while.  I will be in for about a week probably, being pumped through of IV steroids and various other hideous drugs to try and get everything under control.  Then I will have to make Big Decisions about the future and how this is all going to pan out.

So right now I am packing up my crochet bag and digging out some decent books, because it's going to be a long and difficult week.

See you soon.



  1. Let's hope they can get this under control and then you will be well enough to make the decision that's right for you.........good luck, will be thinking of you and sending you virtual hugs and good vibes. xx

  2. I don't claim to know anything about ulcerative colitis but I personally think you've done bloody brilliantly to get where you are today living in its shadow.

    Yes, there is more to life and you are long overdue a break my friend.

    Whatever you decide though, I wish you all the very best.


  3. Thanks so much for getting in touch and linking to me and my frowny colon. :/ I'm thinking of you as you're in the hospital and hoping that some relief is on the way soon, however that can happen...

  4. So, so sorry to hear it, Ali. I'm hoping the hospital stay goes ok for you, and wishing you wisdom in making decisions. Hugs!


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